By Ikumwoyi Toluwalase
When people do not accept divine guidance, they run wild. But whoever obeys the law is joyful
Words alone will not discipline a servant;
The words may be understood, but they are not heeded…
“Since God chose you to be the holy people he loves, you must clothe yourselves with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember the Lord forgave you, so you much forgive others” Jadesola read out loud for the fifth time…the Holy Spirit had laid it on her heart to study Colossians chapter three. She didn’t have an idea of what was there, but she now knew what the Holy Spirit was teaching her in plain words.
“Am not sure am ready for this”, she said, taking a deep sigh… She had to visit Busayo in the hospital today and she was not sure she wanted to meet that man yet. He destroyed her life for Christ sake. She should have been married already, she thought deep within her.
“Please help me to do your will, I am ready to let go of this hurt within me”, she said going on her knees to pray. She prayed for close to thirty minutes before dressing up. She had cooked delicious jollof rice with chicken for Busayo, she knew he loved her cooking.
“Good morning Jadesola”, doctor Paul said to her. She came in while he was administering some medication to Busayo’s arm…
“Good morning…”, she muttered as a reply not looking at him. It was a lot easier to think of doing it than actually doing it.
“Erhm, can you spare me few minutes of your time, I will be waiting under the tree outside”, he said and left without waiting for her response.
“He is still as commanding as usual, so he thinks he still has the right to boss her around, who does he think he is?”, she thought to herself, while her face showed something different she was faking a smile at Busayo.
“Am very sorry… It was a mistake I regretted for the rest of my life”, doctor Paul said as soon as Jadesola joined him under the tree.
“Sorry!! You mean you are sorry…do you think sorry will take back the hurt, pain, hardship, tears I had faced all these years?”, She snapped back at him in anger.
“I know…I am…”, he tried to say more…before Jadesola interjected.
“No you don’t know,don’t tell me you know…if you knew you wouldn’t have taken advantage of your own protegee. You knew my weakness, and you didn’t even care about the consequences. You were supposed to be a spiritual father, not a life destroyer that you are.” she spit it all out in few seconds. She definitely had held it in for years. She was in tears, she couldn’t stop herself.
“Am sorry dear…”, he moved closer to where she was standing.
“I don’t think I have a choice but to forgive you, I know it won’t change what has happened but at least I will have peace within myself”, she finally said after calming herself and cleaning her wet face with her handkerchief. She had seen the remorse in his eyes. her heart melted.
“How are you doing now?”, she added to break the silence between them. Doctor Paul never thought she could forgive him this easily, he was still “processing” the words she said.
“Hmmh… I went through hell after that night, and my life hasn’t been the same so far”, he said when he finally found his voice.
“What was the first thing I told you, when you first entered this house?”, Chief Bassey asked Paul.
“You said you are a staunch Catholic sir and erhmmm…no pregnancy before marriage.”, he said scratching his head. If only he had listened. He blamed his stubborn nature and disobedient attitude to the voice of the Holy Spirit.
“Paul, I think you should listen to the Holy Spirit.” Kolawole said, Paul had told him the dream he had and what the Holy Spirit had told him when he woke up.
“See Kola, it is just a dream, and am sure the Holy Spirit was not talking about this journey, maybe it’s the ministration I have next month”, Paul said as he packed his gadgets into his bag. He wasn’t going to cancel his self made appointment, he wanted to see his protegee. The poor girl had been asking him to visit, though jokingly, and on the other hand, it was an avenue for him to visit his fiancee, who was working in Akure.
“He who, being often reproved, hardens his neck shall suddenly be destroyed—and that without remedy”, his roommate said without looking at him..
“Na you go be destroyed, silly guy”, he threw a book at his roommate who dodged it, laughing at the impact of his words.
He had traveled to Ondo town with a heavy heart. He knew him going was wrong. The Holy Spirit kept convincing him to go back and memories from the dream where he jumped into the mud without no one pushing him came rushing back into his mind.
“These dreams can be funny atimes”, he said to himself, no matter what happens, he is strong enough to face it, he is not a baby in Christianity, he finally made peace within himself.
“Am sorry sir, I slept off” Jadesola said to him after five minutes of continuous knocking on her door, he had easily located the place of residence from the description she sent to him.
“This is a lovely meal, your husband will be blessed to have you”, he said cleaning his mouth with his handkerchief, he had just tasted one of the greatest meal in his lifetime.
She packed the plates before him and took it to the kitchen. As she walked past him, he noticed her features. “Oh my God this lady is beautiful, with nice curves, well endowed. If not because am engaged I would have prayed her into being God’s will.”, his inner voice said to him, but he quickly dismissed it. Why would he be thinking like that, his fiancee was more than enough.
After a long discussion, she started crying, she was depressed, her dad was on the hospital bed, she needed comfort, a part of him wanted to go over to sit beside her on the bed and a part of him was warning him not to, but he did the former. As he placed his arms around her, he felt the warmth on her body, as electric pulses surged through him, she was irresistible. Then, the opportunity came. He held her chin and looking into her eyes, he just couldn’t stop his lips from engaging hers in a passionate kiss.
Just then the door opened and he heard…”Jadesola!!!, Doctor Paul, no!!!! This can’t be happening…”
He was jolted back to reality. He had done the irreversible. Jadesola ran out to meet the young man who just came in, he guessed he was her fiancee..
He quickly packed his bags and made for the door, he definitely couldn’t face her, after what he had just done…
“Why is this happening to me, what came over me? The devil is stupid…!”, he said to himself as he sat in the bus going to Akure. He was the first person to enter the bus.
“Hello, where are you, I am in front of your house. Okay…alright” he dropped the call he had just put through to his fiancée. He couldn’t bear the burning sensations of anger and guilt he had within himself.. He needed to see his fiancee and explain everything to her, she would understand and tell him what to do..
“What happened, you took so long to get here”, he asked her after she finally appeared at her doorstep,
“You didn’t tell me you were coming, and I was at the saloon when you called, I needed to make my hair today”, she said while searching for the key to her room in her bag.
“So is this a surprise visit or something happened?” she asked Paul who had been standing after she had opened the door, he didn’t answer but kept staring at her, in a quick moment, he moved towards her and kissed her, she struggled at first but later kissed him back. They ravished the moment and got lost in it…
“Oh no!! I should have listened…I just should have listened…I am in trouble”, Paul said sweating. He was only clad in his boxers while Doris was weeping at the other side of the bed, she was holding the blanket that covered her nakedness.
“See as the mighty have fallen and the weapons of fall are scattered abroad”, he finally said as he picked his clothes, wore them, and made his way to the door without even looking back to see his devastated fiancee. Doris too was too busy crying that she didn’t notice him leave her room…
“Kolawole am in trouble”, he said to his roommate when he finally got to his room in the night.
“The die is cast, what do you want to do now?”, Kolawole who was not surprised at the news his roommate was sharing, asked with deep concern.
“I don’t know, I really don’t know”, he said as he picked his phone and sent a message to Doris stating they needed to stay away from each other for awhile because of the incident.
“Doctor Paul, I think you need a month leave, you look stressed up and unhealthy”, his chief medical director told him as he was walking down the hospital hallway.
He decided to take the one month leave since he really needed it. It had been three months after the incident and it was taking a toll on him. He would travel on a retreat and maybe he could get things back to normal…
“I am pregnant we need to talk”, Paul almost fainted. he had been on the retreat ground for almost two weeks and today he had an awesome encounter with God. He felt at peace, only to see ten missed calls and one message from Doris when he checked his phone.
“But why Lord, it was just once…It was a mistake…I thought you have forgiven me…. Why didn’t you let go of this…”, he cried effortlessly like a baby.
He knew he had to journey to Akure, and when he saw her, he knew he was in a better condition than she was. She looked so haggard and sick. Her friend that was with her looked at him with contempt.
Here he was in his in-law’s sitting room with his parents, after several pleas, he had no other option but to do a quick wedding before she started becoming heavy and people started noticing her pregnancy.
“So, you think you will default in that one condition I gave you, and I will still give you my daughter’s hand in marriage?”, the old man ask. He was a retired military man.
“Sir, we are very sorry, the kids have made a terrible mistake, but notwithstanding, it is our duty as parents to help them correct this mistake”, Paul’s father said trying to save his son from further hits from the man.
“Okay, I have heard you”, Doris’s father replied, stood up and walked towards the stairs that led to his room, everyone in the sitting room was scared…
Gbam!! Kpara pata…. They all ran upstairs to see where the sound came from, and as they opened his door, Paul’s eyes caught the blood flowing from his in-law’s hand, and he screamed…Jesus!!!
To be continued…
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