Save Me! episode 13

Ikumawoyi Toluwalase

Cover: "Save Me!"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Episode 13

 
O lord how long will you forget me? Forever?
How long will you look the other way?
How long must I struggle with anguish in my soul, with sorrow in my heart everyday?
How long will my enemy Episode thirteen
have the upper hand?.

-psalms 13:1-2

“What exactly is my sin, Lord?” Joseph asked as tears rolled down from his eyes.
“Those were my words close to eighteen years ago.” Funmilayo said as she walked in with James. The duo had been outside waiting for him to wake up. James had called her when John called him that things had turned out differently for Joseph…
“I just don’t understand why he refused to grant me death while I suffered pain staying alive…my heart is bleeding Funmi, I barely survived the last attack.” Joseph replied her looking away to avoid eye contact with James. Funmi understood his words too well. He had just battled death, while the doctors and surgeons were running helter skelter to save his life, he kept screaming “I want to die.” Doctor Paul injected him with a sleeping drug which ought to last for three hours. By the time the nurse would come back to check if he was awake, she met him pulsating and shivering in shocking, she had to call the doctor who immediately put him on life support oxygen machine. They fought hard to know why the shock came up only to discover he had internal bleeding. They operated on him, but towards the end of the operation they lost him. His heart stopped beating.
“Am sorry he didn’t make it.” doctor Paul said, amidst tears. Even though the operation was successful, Joseph didn’t have a will to live, so he didn’t fight for his life…
“No! He cannot die, he is not dead!!” the devastated John screamed, he immediately called Jadesola and James. He needed their help.
“Has he woken up?” Jadesola said panting. She still didn’t want to believe Joseph was dead yet. She saw him some few hours ago. “He can’t be dead. I am finished. I will crash totally.” she said, as she sat on the floor in a gradual motion.
“If this is the only thing you would grant me for the rest of my life, its worth trading my other requests for… Please bring him back for me. I promise you I will leave his life for good. I will forget him and you know maybe try and love someone else.” Jadesola desperately prayed as if God was waiting for her prayers, almost immediately, a nurse ran out to call doctor Paul who was still comforting John.
“He is awake doctor. He is breathing again.” the nurse said, as the whole place was filled with uproars of people screaming “thank you Jesus”, “halleluyah”….
Jadesola walked away knowing she had to fulfil her part of the bargain. She was never going to set her eyes on him again…….Just then James and Funmilayo walked to meet John  screaming and shouting for joy, before he left after receiving an urgent phone call…
“The fact that he is silent does not mean he can’t hear you. Why don’t you stop complaining and see him in all these. The scriptures says all things work together for…” Funmi said to joseph. She wanted to try her little best to convince him that God loved him despite the situation, but the former bible study secretary thought otherwise as he finished her statement.
“…good to them that love God and are called according to his purpose… See I am not Job who claims he is righteous. But don’t tell me he was there all through when I was facing the worst challenge of my life. Where was he when my father planted the seed of failure in me? Where was he when Patrick died because of my mistakes? Where was he went I had an accident?…” Joseph couldn’t take it anymore someone had to understand him.
“The same place he was when his only son was sacrificed to make you righteous, and don’t tell me you still see yourself as a sinner, Because I know you are the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus…” Funmi said to him convincingly.
“When you pass through fire I will be there with you. He might seem too far, but he is an ever present help in times of trouble. He is mighty to save…” James whose eye was swollen said in an outburst. He couldn’t bear to see his best friend talking like a pagan who doesn’t know God…
Funmi looked at james, she remembered what he said in the car on his way to hospital, “I don’t want to loose him too, I lost my dad. Now am going to loose my best friend…? No lord please save him…I was only envious of his almost perfect life…I didn’t mean to hurt him. Please save him.”
“Can I be alone for a while?” Joseph finally said breaking the silence in the room. James and Funmi stood up to leave the room.. He needed to meditate on those words he needed to find himself. He was too lost.

“Try looking on the inside than on the outside… Remember who you are in Christ…You are a son!! And know that every one has their darkest times…You need the light in your darkest times…There is always light at the end of every tunnel. Look up unto Jesus the author and the finisher of your faith. He loves you Jossy!…” Funmi said, with that face that showed experience…

“Who is that…?” Funmi asked, as she walked hazily to the door, it was eleven in the night, and she was the only one at home, her mum had gone for a vigil, and her dad, only God knows where that man had gone to.
“Lizzy, if you don’t open this door, I will break it and ..ermhmm.. I will erhmm…” Funmi recognised that voice. Her good for nothing father was back, drunk as usual. Only God knows why her mother married the irresponsible man, he had no job, no ambition, no asset of any kind. The only thing he was good for was drinking..
“Mum, are you sure, daddy is my father?” Funmi had asked her mother one evening after her father had recklessly beaten her mother to near death. She also partook in the beating when she came to rescue her mother.
“He is your father, and he will always be your father. My dear he was not like this before, I just don’t understand what came over him, ehn!! It must be his witch of a mother.” Funmi’s mother said, trying to clean her tears. Well no one would blame her for marrying him, he was a sweet young accountant who had met her when she was having her teaching practice. Their love relationship started and somehow along the way he pressurized her into having sexual relations with him, since he promised marriage, she gave in. Soon she became pregnant. And after series of attempt to abort it. Her parents got wind of it, and she was forced to marry him after her father threatened to disown her because she destroyed the family’s reputation by getting pregnant outside marriage. A year into their marriage, he came home telling his wife that he had resigned from his job.
“Kayode, why will you just wake up in the morning and resign your job as an accountant without consulting me?” she said almost shouting in shock.
“Well my mother said I should go and start a business. She said business is my destined path in life.” Kayode answered his wife non-challantly.
Things had never been the same for them ever since then. Thanks to her elder brother who lived abroad and sends money to her, coupled with her new job as the assistant headmistress, she and her daughter would have starved to death because his so called business that got ruined at the first shipment he ordered for. Kayode invested all his life savings and the entire container sank on its way to Nigeria. He became a drunk after that, coupled with womanising…
“Elizabeth, you do not want to open the do…or for me abi…? I will send you parking right now.” Funmi’s father said to his daughter, after the girl reluctantly opened the door for him. He was staggering and smelling of alcohol…
“You look sooo beautiful tonight Elizabeth…” The drunk father said touching his daughter’s face thinking she was his wife…
“Daddy abeg leave me alone, it is Funmi, not mummy” she said slapping her father’s hand, and walked briskly towards her room. Unknown to her, her father was following her, as soon as she opened her door, he pushed her in, rough handled her, and he ended up raping her of her innocence…
“Elizabeth, you still this sweet.” He said still ignorant of his actions, as he wore his trousers and left the room while Funmi was crying heavily. Her own father has just deflowered and defiled her without shame and remorse, she felt like the ground should open up on her.
“Haaa! Mogbe…My only child.. .Haaa kayode has ended up in destroying my life.. Kayode!!!” Funmi’s mother screamed on top of her voice as she ran to the sitting room where the drunk Kayode laid still snoring and oblivious of his environment…
“Kayode you have killed me!!!…You have slept with your own daughter, your flesh and blood,…” she said dragging and beating him…While Kayode woke up not understanding her tantrum, until he heard the words as she repeated them…He became sober immediately, he had thought it was his wife as usual.. He picked his cloth from the floor and went out…
“Park everything…Enough is enough, I am leaving this house today.” Elizabeth instructed her daughter after she kept having nightmares about the incident.
Her brother told her to come over to the states and since Funmi was just about to start her senior secondary, she obeyed, he sent the money for the papers and passport, that was how Funmi became an Americana.
“Funmi, I am not going to forgive him, not after everything he did to you and I. Am not even expecting you to forgive him easily.” Lizzy said to her daughter, its been years they had been abroad, Eunice had called two weeks ago that her father was dead. He was poisoned by his new wife, who ran away with his millions of naira..
“I forgave him years ago mum. He was an ignorant sinner who knew nothing about freedom through grace…am a son now and forgiveness is my birthright, though it was hard for me at first,but come to think of it…Despite how bad I was, he washed me, regenerated me, justified me, purified me, then he added, your sins will I remember no more…” Funmi lectured her mother…”Joyce Meyer, that you love so much had a similar experience like mine…” she added,while her mum whose head was bent raised it with tears in her eyes…
Due to her mum’s health she journeyed to Nigeria alone for her father’s burial. She was on her way back to the states after the burial. Eunice had dropped her at the airport when she heard her name…”Omoboriola Funmilayo,” she turned around to see a young, heavily built,handsome guy. That was her wish, but she saw quite the opposite in the young man walking down to meet her, and for the first time in ten years, her heart skipped a beat.
To be continued…

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s